Here we are again in the midst of a chemo week, # 10 to be exact. The adrenaline, anxiety, and anticipation that once surrounded these weeks have started to fade, and are now replaced by the weight of exhaustion, irritation, and the slow grind of endurance. The Monday appointment at the clinic was with a physicians assistant we had not seen previously, and as she walked into the exam room I quietly thought, "Oh shit." Nothing against her, but the pep, perma-smile and invasio

The much-anticipated CT scan happened last Friday, October 10th. The days leading up to it were filled with hope, anxiety, fear, and every other emotion that gets jumbled into what those of us in the cancer community call "scanxiety." I'm sure Allina's MyChart website saw a significant spike in traffic that day as I compulsively refreshed the page, waiting for results to post. Finally, my impatience got the best of me. By Friday afternoon, I decided to tap into a connection—a

Is this chemo #6 or #7? Phillip and I can't keep it straight anymore as it is still this blurry whirlwind. While it feels we have...

As the weather shifts and seasons change, its been a subtle reminder of our reality. Time continues on and yet here we are in this...